The Rose of Jericho
Dry, brittle, and dehydrated are the branches of the Rose of Jericho. To the unknowing eye, it looks like a curled up dead plant in the dry season. Like just another organism that failed to exist. Yet, the unknowing eye is wrong.
The symbolism of this flower is resilience
I speak about resilience a great deal. This is because I’m constantly reminded that it is a quality that is needed for my survival. Coasting in life is easy when things are happening according to planned. We don’t question our survival. We bloom. Happy with our water, soil, and glorious sunlight. But when we feel like we’ve lost control of our situation, which is something we’re really never in control of in the first place, we tend to question our survival.
What about when the rainfalls are too heavy, and your soil is saturated with water. Your roots can’t take in anymore. Or strong winds knock you over, uproot you, and you’re tumbling to an unknown place. What happens if you end up in the desert? Blown around by hot air and sand. Drained by the sun. Scorched and in desiccation.
The unforetold circumstances of life can and will topple us. They will push us to our absolute limits. However, there is one act in life of which we always maintain control. That is the decision to quit or fight through.
In this garden of life, I choose to be a Rose of Jericho. A flower than can withstand being buried by desert sands for decades. And when the dunes blow away and unearth this plant, it rides the winds in hopes of reaching a desert oasis or feeling the desert rain. Then it can once again bloom and spread its seeds to create more resilient life.
I know my trials are not over and there are more obstacles ahead, but I am thankful for finding the desert rain. I am happy that while I ventured through a dry patch in my life I was able to see that love from the people around me was my true oasis. Not a mirage or a hallucination. Real love from real people. Now, it is time that I usher in new resilient life.
Last month I received hella messages from all over telling me that I was going to undergo a transformation. Normally, I wouldn't speak so candidly of my serious spiritual revelations. I don't like to get too personal on the net... people have a habit of trying to dress me in their perceptions, but I don't wear knock-offs.
There was a distinct universal message being transmitted to me from different sources, but first I had to open myself up to observe.
Observation is deeper than looking and seeing. Through alchemy seeing is reinvented as observation. Observation is far more intricate than seeing as it includes attention, learning, noticing, and perceiving. Through observation, you discover patterns. Patterns that can help you. Or hurt you. You may find patterns that you need to introduce into your life more. Or you may find patterns that you should eliminate from your life. There’s knowledge in patterns. If researching sacred geometry is one of your habits, then you already know this.
A habit that you should pick up is to observe the patterns in your life and decipher their code. Figure out if they help or harm you. Find the message. No, all messages aren’t told. Some have to be found because they are treasure. Limitless and infinite. Nonexpendable treasure. A gift so great is hidden deep. It is a reward. And it is yours. #GetTRIGGERED and go get it.
Listen and Observe
How do you earn this ever so wondrous reward? You listen. And you listen carefully. Listen and observe. I titled this blog, Listen Carefully, because when we listen we hear everything. Listening, to me, requires more concentration. We can see a lot, but we’re not always observing. However, we hear everything around us. Our brain and spirit does on many levels. Whether you can recall everything you’ve heard depends on the reality you choose, but we always hear.
If you listen to the radio, then you know that if you are too far away from the satellite, or if too many stations cross signals, then you will hear static. It is the exact same with your life.
If you are too far away from your spirit, you will hear static. And if there are too many frequencies around you, especially ones that are not transmitting on the same level as you, then you will also hear static. Frequencies represent levels of energy (from people, places, and things). And static represents fear, anxiety, rampant/random emotions, and etc. I’m talking about straight-up distortion of the signal you really need to hear. The one that lives inside of you. The most honest signal. Your spirit. Tune into the right station. Turn down the stations with the most static. Listen Carefully.
The Big Message
So, what was that big message that I received? Align by design.
Being in alignment is much like being balanced. Life flows better when things are in order. Of course, everything is not always in order, but how you carry yourself during these periods is what you take with you.
I had to undergo a change, but in order to change, I had to find a catalyst. I only found it because I listened carefully for instructions and observed. I know what I am taking forward with me. And I am thankful for this transformation.
Align yourself by designing a new and better mindset that will allow you to do more observing and listening.
It's a Journey
It’s Not a Quick Jog. It’s a Lifetime Journey.
Don’t Run! Walk. Take your time. There’s a long road ahead of you. Some think the road of life is treacherous. There are so many obstacles. Love, heartbreak, birth, death, wins, losses, up’s, and down’s. Do you ask yourself, “why can’t I catch a break?” The truth is there is no break from life… If you are not alive, then you are dead.
We often find ourselves needing to catch our breath when we are rushing. We’re rushing to get that big check, we’re rushing to find that perfect mate or get married, we’re rushing to work, we’re rushing to get that perfect body. When we rush we have less time to think. Our bodies are under duress, and we open ourselves up to more mistakes. More wrecks! More emotional turmoil! More anxiety! More physical ailments!
I know this. I am still that person from time-to-time, but I used to be that person all the time. I was a person with no control of my pace. I was running and always out of breath. Dizzy. Lost. No feeling of stability. So, I rushed. I rushed to find stability in jobs even though I knew they weren’t my true calling. (I know we have to do what we have to do sometimes, but your career should not drain you of your energy and your will EVERY DAY.) I rushed to find love in relationships where red flags were present from the jump! I rushed in my diet. Eating food on the go. Fast food! Food that negatively impacts your health, and fast!
Eventually, I had to stop running…
Eventually, I had to breathe deeper…
Eventually, I had to see clearer…
In comes Balance. With balance comes Clarity. With clarity comes Intuitiveness. With intuitiveness comes Transmutation. With transmutation comes Spiritual Awakening.
Spiritual Awakening - Spiritual Awakening is seeing all truths. Not just yours. It is driven by awareness. You will look into each situation through all perspectives. You will put your power behind your passions. This is a transcending state. Obstacles won’t knock you down, but elevate you a to higher plane. Your pineal gland will be clear of debris so your third eye can see! You will be ever evolving and not afraid of change. You will feel light and happy. Your peace will be your top priority. I know. I am here.
I can tell that I am healing.
Because I am choosing to live an incomparable life.
I am freeing myself of comparisons, and accepting myself as a one of a kind individual. I am understanding what progress is to me and not measuring it against the progress of others. I am recognizing that my steps must not be the same steps as my colleagues, or of my parents. My steps must serve me and get me to my destined destination. As long as I get there and help others along the way, I’m good.
These parts of me can’t be compared to those of another. They are not better and they are not worse. They are unique and beautifully crafted to be prized by me and shared with others.
I can tell I’m healing. I process things a lot differently. I’ve dug deep to get a better grasp of my emotions. I know what things I do to hurt me. I know what things I do to hurt others. Knowing is clarity. Clarity is knowing.
I vibe better with people who share this same frequency. With people who frequently remind themselves that it’s ok to whole-heartedly be themselves. With the powers that be constantly telling you what's beautiful and what’s smart, you have to remind yourself not to fall for it. To remain true to you.
And love… we’re in a world where more than a billion types of love exist. Love feels different to everyone. So, how do we build a lasting love when our individual loves are matchless? We compromise. We learn their love and they learn ours. Because knowing is clarity. Clarity is fueled by communication. Honest communication blesses a relationship. And partners in a blessed relationship that lasts will know that the union is incomparable to the relationships of others. A relationship’s journey doesn’t have to be the same as anyone else’s.
Living an incomparable life is changing me. It is changing the way I view myself and how I am connected to the world around me. Although, sometimes living this type a life can be lonely, I still prefer it. I know some people won't understand it because it's different. It requires struggle on another level, but I am healing, and I feel stronger. That's what matters most to me.
I think I am about to bounce back...
And that can mean a few things depending on the person.
I could be waking up from a deep slumber... or about to close these curtains...
I stay flirting... ;)
but still, I think I'm about to bounce back.
Have you ever felt like something amazing was about to happen,
just submerged in this bliss of an "I can make it/I can do this" - ish moment?
Yes! For a moment, you believed!
You felt like you'd make it no matter what! No matter what came. No matter the pain.
Just ready for whatever, then here came... whoever... talking that shit.
Asking if you're sure about this.
Asking you to do it their way...
Asking you to hear what they say.
And what they say is what everybody is saying.
But you never wanted to do what everyone else is doing.
So, you keep pursuing the goal at hand, but a little bit more cautious...
Because they doubted your plan.
Their doubt became yours.
You just inherited their closed doors.
And in exchange you get to remain close.
You get to toast to staying in the same place and doing the same things.
And they'll be the Tails to you, Sonic.... getting all your missed rings.
I'm about to bounce back like Sonic after a spin charge.
Right before the dash.
Holding the down arrow and pressing on the C button.
Don't let them hold you back.
Don't let them stop you from touching... your dreams.
You've been reaching for a reason.
Reaching towards the sky and stretching.
They know once you've stretched you won't be on their level.
That's why we must surround ourselves with people who only want better.
But not just better for themselves...
Sometimes we have to go through things.
We have to go through cycles.
We have to hold different titles.
We have to be other people.
Just to notice how regal...
we really we were from the beginning.
Pass on your open doors.
Pass on on your scars.
And not your sores.
Pass on what has healed.
And not wounds that you allow to remain open.
Pass on your hope and motivation.
Show people how to bounce back.
You know, like in rotation?
We get higher, we get hired.
I'm bout to bounce back.
I'm bout to go shake sum on an island.
I'm bout to wake up every day smiling.
And a million and half people can tell me I'm wilding.
But I WILL NOT.
I won't stop believing. In me. Ever. Again.
Believing in my worth.
Believing in my love.
Believing in my mind.
Believing in my faith.
Before a bullet leaves a gun's barrel, Before it travels through the bore,
Before it escapes... There is a RECOIL.
Best explained by (as the textbooks say) "Newton's Third Law"
[I've have yet to research who may have really discovered this, but anyway]
For every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction.
Sometimes there is a jolt, a setback, a push before we are launched.
But it's time to bounce back.
Don’t Forget About the Highest
Lately, I've received one constant message. I’ve had three conversations from several people that shared a connection. Essentially, the main topic was God. I took it as a sign to reevaluate my relationship with the spirit of all spirits.
There is something about being close with your spirit. That something can be described as an irreplaceable feeling. Especially if your spirit is fulfilled. A fulfilled spirit is close to God, the highest spirit.
So, we can’t forget God. We can’t forget about the heavens. They are too important to forget. They are connected to us. We can’t mentally be without, but often we are. Sometimes on purpose, sometimes it slips our mind, sometimes we’re busy, and just haven’t found time… for devotion.
For those conversations, those meetings, those reflections, those directions….
Whether you go to church, attend mosque, visit any other temples, or meditate to talk to the God within, let it be known that devotion is a necessity.
Devotion is a space. A public and/or private time that needs to be managed and revisited daily. It is a never-ending cycle. It is a spiritual recycling center. It is where you take all the energy attached to you and refresh it while you interact with the highest spirit.
What I feel to be most important in my life right now is the action of upgrading. Recently, I‘ve upgraded my vision board by removing obtained goals, and adding new goals to achieve. And now that I think about it, I see that devotion requires upgrading as well. My devotion has evolved from religious to spiritual over the years, and with each upgrade it fits the newest version of me, but it is not something that happens automatically. It requires dedication and awareness. It requires you.
Ask yourself if you are as close to God as you need to be. Upgrade your devotion. Rejuvenate your faith. Renew your visions and dreams. And love you at every step.
As always, I’m sending you peace and blessings.
Through Eyes of Perception
Back In the City
I have not been fond of reading my own work aloud. I'm not quite sure why. Maybe it has been fear, but we know we shouldn't move forward in fear. So, here is a video of me practicing, lol. I was inspired to write about my city last week. Here's a poem about Macon, GA.
Feed Your Fire
This takes me to a short conversation I’ve been wanting to have on weight loss. Often, we want to lose weight for the wrong reasons. Maybe you want to look like someone on TV, or you want to find a partner. Well, my fire burned off my pounds. I don’t even step on the scale anymore. Losing pounds isn’t my driving force for exercising anymore. My spirit feels lighter when my body feels lighter. I know that I need to eat the right things to have energy. I need energy to write. Writing pays the bills. I know that I want to be a mother. So, my body needs to be in its best condition before I even think about carrying another spirit in it.
Go natural! And by that, I mean to look to herbs and plants to help you. I make fat burning oils, and take different herbs to aid me in my healthy lifestyle.
Diary of Faith