I can tell that I am healing.
Because I am choosing to live an incomparable life.
I am freeing myself of comparisons, and accepting myself as a one of a kind individual. I am understanding what progress is to me and not measuring it against the progress of others. I am recognizing that my steps must not be the same steps as my colleagues, or of my parents. My steps must serve me and get me to my destined destination. As long as I get there and help others along the way, I’m good.
These parts of me can’t be compared to those of another. They are not better and they are not worse. They are unique and beautifully crafted to be prized by me and shared with others.
I can tell I’m healing. I process things a lot differently. I’ve dug deep to get a better grasp of my emotions. I know what things I do to hurt me. I know what things I do to hurt others. Knowing is clarity. Clarity is knowing.
I vibe better with people who share this same frequency. With people who frequently remind themselves that it’s ok to whole-heartedly be themselves. With the powers that be constantly telling you what's beautiful and what’s smart, you have to remind yourself not to fall for it. To remain true to you.
And love… we’re in a world where more than a billion types of love exist. Love feels different to everyone. So, how do we build a lasting love when our individual loves are matchless? We compromise. We learn their love and they learn ours. Because knowing is clarity. Clarity is fueled by communication. Honest communication blesses a relationship. And partners in a blessed relationship that lasts will know that the union is incomparable to the relationships of others. A relationship’s journey doesn’t have to be the same as anyone else’s.
Living an incomparable life is changing me. It is changing the way I view myself and how I am connected to the world around me. Although, sometimes living this type a life can be lonely, I still prefer it. I know some people won't understand it because it's different. It requires struggle on another level, but I am healing, and I feel stronger. That's what matters most to me.
I think I am about to bounce back...
And that can mean a few things depending on the person.
I could be waking up from a deep slumber... or about to close these curtains...
I stay flirting... ;)
but still, I think I'm about to bounce back.
Have you ever felt like something amazing was about to happen,
just submerged in this bliss of an "I can make it/I can do this" - ish moment?
Yes! For a moment, you believed!
You felt like you'd make it no matter what! No matter what came. No matter the pain.
Just ready for whatever, then here came... whoever... talking that shit.
Asking if you're sure about this.
Asking you to do it their way...
Asking you to hear what they say.
And what they say is what everybody is saying.
But you never wanted to do what everyone else is doing.
So, you keep pursuing the goal at hand, but a little bit more cautious...
Because they doubted your plan.
Their doubt became yours.
You just inherited their closed doors.
And in exchange you get to remain close.
You get to toast to staying in the same place and doing the same things.
And they'll be the Tails to you, Sonic.... getting all your missed rings.
I'm about to bounce back like Sonic after a spin charge.
Right before the dash.
Holding the down arrow and pressing on the C button.
Don't let them hold you back.
Don't let them stop you from touching... your dreams.
You've been reaching for a reason.
Reaching towards the sky and stretching.
They know once you've stretched you won't be on their level.
That's why we must surround ourselves with people who only want better.
But not just better for themselves...
Sometimes we have to go through things.
We have to go through cycles.
We have to hold different titles.
We have to be other people.
Just to notice how regal...
we really we were from the beginning.
Pass on your open doors.
Pass on on your scars.
And not your sores.
Pass on what has healed.
And not wounds that you allow to remain open.
Pass on your hope and motivation.
Show people how to bounce back.
You know, like in rotation?
We get higher, we get hired.
I'm bout to bounce back.
I'm bout to go shake sum on an island.
I'm bout to wake up every day smiling.
And a million and half people can tell me I'm wilding.
But I WILL NOT.
I won't stop believing. In me. Ever. Again.
Believing in my worth.
Believing in my love.
Believing in my mind.
Believing in my faith.
Before a bullet leaves a gun's barrel, Before it travels through the bore,
Before it escapes... There is a RECOIL.
Best explained by (as the textbooks say) "Newton's Third Law"
[I've have yet to research who may have really discovered this, but anyway]
For every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction.
Sometimes there is a jolt, a setback, a push before we are launched.
But it's time to bounce back.
Lately, I've received one constant message. I’ve had three conversations from several people that shared a connection. Essentially, the main topic was God. I took it as a sign to reevaluate my relationship with the spirit of all spirits.
There is something about being close with your spirit. That something can be described as an irreplaceable feeling. Especially if your spirit is fulfilled. A fulfilled spirit is close to God, the highest spirit.
So, we can’t forget God. We can’t forget about the heavens. They are too important to forget. They are connected to us. We can’t mentally be without, but often we are. Sometimes on purpose, sometimes it slips our mind, sometimes we’re busy, and just haven’t found time… for devotion.
For those conversations, those meetings, those reflections, those directions….
Whether you go to church, attend mosque, visit any other temples, or meditate to talk to the God within, let it be known that devotion is a necessity.
Devotion is a space. A public and/or private time that needs to be managed and revisited daily. It is a never-ending cycle. It is a spiritual recycling center. It is where you take all the energy attached to you and refresh it while you interact with the highest spirit.
What I feel to be most important in my life right now is the action of upgrading. Recently, I‘ve upgraded my vision board by removing obtained goals, and adding new goals to achieve. And now that I think about it, I see that devotion requires upgrading as well. My devotion has evolved from religious to spiritual over the years, and with each upgrade it fits the newest version of me, but it is not something that happens automatically. It requires dedication and awareness. It requires you.
Ask yourself if you are as close to God as you need to be. Upgrade your devotion. Rejuvenate your faith. Renew your visions and dreams. And love you at every step.
As always, I’m sending you peace and blessings.
I have not been fond of reading my own work aloud. I'm not quite sure why. Maybe it has been fear, but we know we shouldn't move forward in fear. So, here is a video of me practicing, lol. I was inspired to write about my city last week. Here's a poem about Macon, GA.
This takes me to a short conversation I’ve been wanting to have on weight loss. Often, we want to lose weight for the wrong reasons. Maybe you want to look like someone on TV, or you want to find a partner. Well, my fire burned off my pounds. I don’t even step on the scale anymore. Losing pounds isn’t my driving force for exercising anymore. My spirit feels lighter when my body feels lighter. I know that I need to eat the right things to have energy. I need energy to write. Writing pays the bills. I know that I want to be a mother. So, my body needs to be in its best condition before I even think about carrying another spirit in it.
Go natural! And by that, I mean to look to herbs and plants to help you. I make fat burning oils, and take different herbs to aid me in my healthy lifestyle.